The other day, I was trying to set up a Yahoo email account for my youngest son, Caleb and stumbled upon my old 360 blog. Did anyone else have one of those? I didn’t even realize that Yahoo stored it, I assumed it was gone forever.
However, I discovered a post from October 20, 2007 and it was dedicated to my new relationship which, at that time, was only a month old.
I just have to gush for a moment because I have never been so happy with a man or treated so well. He is amazing and I am falling head over heels for him. The great thing is that he appears to feel the same way for me. Is it cliché to say that I feel like this is it? He is the one I have waited for. I know he and I are going to end up married. Wow, I can’t even believe I am saying that.
I have never been so connected to a man like this. Did I mention how amazing he is? I prayed long and hard for God to send him to me and now he is here. I have never been in love like this before. And he’s so not my “type” which makes it even better.
The very BEST part is that we havent slept together yet. So I know it’s not just about sex. We have been dating for close to 6 weeks now and seriously involved for 2 weeks. I know, I know, it’s quick. But again, so amazing. Am I repeating myself? Hell, if my girl, Brandi, can be engaged after a month, then I can jump in heart first.
I never thought I would meet a man whom I could see myself loving the way I loved my ex. Yet, here he is and I know that I will never, ever go back to my ex again. I want to love him in so many wonderful ways. He’s so damn loving and kind to me. He’s so damn funny and witty. He’s everything that I have ever wanted.
Fast forward to today, a little over three years later and things are better than I could have ever imagined. We have shared plenty of missteps, hard moments, a break up here and there but we have stuck it out. He takes care of me in ways that I never knew before. My past is full of men who maintained chaos in my life but that cycle has clearly been demolished now.
Yesterday, he asked me what I loved about him and the answer was simple.
“You changed my entire world.”